Forever Faithful...

6 months... you know it wasn't easy to truly let go of everything that you've done to me and brought into my life... I was so alone in the darkest realm of my broken heart and trapped with never ending physical and emotional torture... lost... confused... and exhausted... Tears rained down to fill miles and miles of grieving rivers... where 'regret' and 'sorry' are their names... Unseen blades of guiltiness cut deep into my flesh and blood... peeling away my protective layer of dignity... leaving behind a touched... tainted... shameful... body and soul with crimson proof of unholiness... I've called for you... to help me... to pull me out... and to lend me a hand... but you never answer... you never look back... you never care... you just left me there to die... so you won't have to be responsible for anything and walk away as if nothing happened ... yet you'll still be able to continue on your 'happily ever after' committed devotion to your so-called wife...

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Time flies... and I came to understand whatever complications that I never did...

I managed to struggle through those crucial moments... freeing myself from this frighten prison of abandonment and stay strong to lift my head up high again... awaken myself from this dark slumber and open up my eyes to look at the many wonders around that I once overlooked and being blinded from... Also... I was given the ability to forgive and forget: forgive your mistakes and immaturity... forget your bitter past and immoral trespass... The power of forgiving is divine... for once after a long time... finally I'm able to sincerely smile from the bottom of my heart again... and this glimpse of awakening is priceless...

Time heals all kinds of wounds I guess...

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After going through such a rocky hardship... my heart will never be able to accept a new start... as it only reserve it's space for you... and only you... This will be my last apologies to you... "I am sorry... but I will be forever faithful to you... my one and only love..."

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All this while... I have been dreaming of having the most perfect blog of my own...

A blog so perfect that it includes posts with well described life experiences, fun-filled adventures, personal thoughts, and... etc.

However, it seems because of this very reason... I haven't been able to publish any completed posts...

From my first & last post since October... I had been having too many things in my mind that I want to share with this world... uncountable events and thoughts which happened to me in my life and built up in my cerebral cortex that I wanted to tell... but because of my so-called 'dream' (and really a stubborn one indeed) to create a systematically organized and professionally written posts with relevant pictures and photos to enhance its literacy... this obsession had 'murdered' my inner imaginations for thinking and free-will expressions of feelings...

Now only I realized that I wasn't doing it right as in to write to truly express and share... but instead... I was writing it as a errand to actively please and entertain...

How foolish...

Therefore... from now on... I wish to write FREELY...

Intro to my IMU

“The first word ever written is the hardest,
The first speech ever spoken is the toughest,
And of course,
my first blog ever posted will have included the greatest.” (I hope, haha)

From the moment I realized blogging is one of the ways to express my feelings and thoughts, without any hesitation, I quickly sign up for it and start writing as I have so many tales to tell…

Life as an International Medical University (IMU) ‘psycho’ student has so much to tell for the people I met and the experience I had filled my diary with a thousand sunsets (the last part doesn’t mean anything actually, just wanna make it rhymes… haha). From the Korean guy in biotech to the medicine senior whom I liked, and of course my fellow ‘psycho’ batch mates that brighten up my life; from the memorable orientations to my everyday interesting lectures, all of these really make my life in IMU worth my while.

Now here’s a little something you all need to know about IMU:-

• IMU was initially a shopping mall built in conjunction with the XVI Commonwealth Games held in Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia from 11 to 21 September 1998. Since it was meant to be a shopping complex, to ‘transform’ it into an institution requires lots and lots of renovations. That‘s why there are times the noise interruption can be really disturbing. I hope that it’ll be over soon though…
  
  

• Another reason why IMU needs renovation is because IMU itself is expanding. Medicine, Pharmacy, Dentistry and Nursing were the existing courses until 14 July 2008, came rushing in 5 new programs including Medical Biotechnology, Biomedical Science, Nutrition & Dietetics, Pharmaceutical Chemistry, and last but not least… PSYCHOLOGY! (hohoho…) So we are basically the pioneers of these whole new courses and it does feels good to be called one, haha.

• What do you have in mind when you heard about the word MEDICAL University? I bet you’ll think it’ll be a professional and serious place where there’s no entertainment, having tons of nerdy people wearing thick glasses and their nose stuck in a book, am I right? Well… you’re totally wrong about that! Alright, despite the fact that we DO have dress codes which required us to wear formal during lecture hours. Other than that, boys and girls in IMU are hot and sizzling; the events held by the clubs and societies are completely out of this world! You’ll have food fair right in the middle of the atrium with students wearing traditional clothes selling a variety of food while performances will be going on to fire up the atmosphere; you’ll also be having live concerts by the members of music and performance club presenting awesome songs during your meal to cook up your appetite, etc. That’s why I said, life will never be boring in IMU…
  
  

• Although just the building (appearance) itself you can say that it’s small, but what it (all other aspects) actually contains is unspeakably BIG. Hence, “never judge a book by its cover.”
  
  

That’s basically about it, a brief intro about my beloved IMU. (^_^)